how good is it?

major events in my life recently

Wed, 14 Jul 2004 04:21:12 GMT

-i love workshop and all of staff! :) i'm glad to work with such great individuals who really put others before themselves. we've had some rough occurrences so far, but everyone is pulling through for one another. it's taught me to be even more empathetic towards others.

-flash flood two days ago, had to leave adam lloyd moffit (the civic) in the OL lot for fear of stalling out and engine trouble in high waters.

-got to visit the real adam lloyd moffit and friends in annapolis, md on sunday. good times.. thinking.

-semi-quit the life at beale st today. i don't really want to go back, but i can't quit completely. i HATE quitting... anything. even if it doesn't make me completely happy, i feel like i should be able to find the light in ANY situation and just suck it up.

-i got asked out on a date tonight. i think. well, last time i didn't think it was a date and it was. so maybe now if i think it's a date, it won't be? don't know if it's such a good idea. but what the hay? it's summer and i'm so single it's disgusting. ;)

my body is covered in sand

Tue, 15 Jun 2004 22:34:24 GMT

thought i'd update since i never do. (yeah, i'm one of those lj users).... if you want a condensed version just read the very last sentence.

the best weekend of summer so far was memorial day weekend.. more than half of the crew was together.. there was much boozing and laughter and music.

the restaurant has kind of taken over my life, but i love the people there. i've been spending my days off at the beach and making sure to get that workout in. no one bothered to inform me that i'm getting fat again. thanks guys. i'm ready for workshop to take over my life, too.

i'm ready for big things. i wish people didn't have to move in to "more important" things like jobs and such. wouldn't it be awesome if we all quit our jobs and just had our parents pay for everything again? or we could just start bartering when we want things. we'd have a swapping session every other weekend.

speaking of the weekend. eliot and i are trying to put together a dodgeball tournament this weekend. maybe my backyard? maybe some brews? i don't know.. we'll see where this goes. turns out i have to work.. surprise surprise.

so basically, vb kids are rockin my life. i love being home, and for the most part i'm happy. i guess not much has changed... :)

in case you were wondering....

Mon, 10 May 2004 04:00:25 GMT

update, if anyone even reads this anymore ;)

school: 2 finals left. halfway moved out. can't wait to be done, and also really stoked about living in the townhouse next year. need furniture.

plans for the summer: beach week in nags head next week (gillian baugh is coming with! stoked) vblw, wait tables at beale st (eat and/or have a drink at the bar! please come hang out with me when i work!), and beach party it up

living: with my parents (yay!).. and my sister is moving back in tomorrow (not-so-yay). i love her, but it should be interesting... please call and make sure i'm sane (that goes out particularly to sarah b)

friends: good. new and old. <3 <3 <3

status: single. very very single. waiting for the right summer fling. no strings attached, please.

need more? you know where to reach me.

domesticity

Sun, 11 Apr 2004 07:36:40 GMT

we had a little dinner party at the house tonight. caitlin, jess, and i cooked for some of the boys. it was mad fun. it's decided. i'm becoming a housewife. i had so much fun picking out groceries and cooking and getting everything ready. i'm still gonna finish up college, but as meaghan always says.. i'm just here to get my m.r.s. :)

in other news... life rocks. i'm pretty stoked about everything at this point. there are only a few things lacking, but all the other hardruling stuff makes up for it. love my friends, love my school, love my family. sometimes i get all teary-eyed because i'm so happy. CHEESY.

i couldn't resist taking this dumb quiz...

Fri, 19 Mar 2004 05:39:39 GMT

Emo! You're very in touch with your emotions and
that's what I like about you! It's all about
the music for you... I have pity for your
tortured soul...you're just like me...

What genre of rock are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

haha, what are the odds? i don't want to be labeled emo. boo.
in all cases, i consider myself none of the above.

Mon, 15 Mar 2004 05:09:48 GMT

went to cocoa beach and ocala, fl. tons of fun. stayed in vb last night. friends from school and friends from home. it was a gooooood time. i have some of the coolest kids as my friends.

i think my favorite feeling in the entire world is running into old friends that are stoked to see you. there's nothing more uplifting than a gasp, widened eyes, and rush to give you the biggest hug and pick you up in the air.

so school is really starting to feel like home for me... and that's weird. i haven't felt like that before. i think i kind of like it. don't get me wrong-- vb and all it entails always hold the highest place in my heart. but it's good to know that i feel comfortable enough to be here and i don't just feel like i'm visiting some other place for 7/8 months out of the year.

had some good conversation with my daddy today. that man and i are connected like crazy. one night last week i was in a really bad mood and had beer tears flowing like no other. my dad calls the next day (he never calls.. we're in-person kind of people) and asks me if i'm ok because he had two dreams the night before that i was crying. wtf, mate? that's freaky. i love him. he rules so hard.

there's the randomness in my mind right now. wish me luck for the next few months because i couldn't possibly crave summer more.

Thu, 19 Feb 2004 07:43:39 GMT

what a day.. totally rethinking life and feeling obsolete.

on a lighter note, i've thought recently about certain things that people wouldn't normally know about a person. so here are a list of things about me that you would never know unless you asked (or if you just tune into stuff really well):

-i think vera bradley, louis vitton, and coach bags are hideous and i have no idea why they're a fashion trend. (ps. excuse the spellings of any of those)
-i can't walk down stairs, i always want to run down them
-i have to make my bed everyday
-i go through packs of gum faster than anyone
-hooters is my favorite restaurant when it comes to going out in groups
-i don't like very cloudy days, but i love clouds
-i'm close to OCD about washing my hands
-chances are, if i see you and i say hey, but you don't hear me.. i keep saying "hey ____" but not even in a loud voice so you hear it. for some reason that's entertaining to me
-getting voicemails are one of my favorite things ever. i don't get too many these days, so the ones i do get make me really stoked
-i like to say things like sweet, stoked, bra, bro hymn, and rad.. but i don't because i'm afraid people might joke me

that's all that comes to mind. more will come later i think.

rock.
out.

Fri, 06 Feb 2004 02:27:25 GMT

two road trips tomorrow...

up to b's apt in fairfax with rigney in the early afternoon.

then down to uncw where the party's at. happy 21st jon baltz.

so stoked to spend many hours with eliot and brandon. i miss my boys! here's to a good weekend. pray for no drama.

heart is on the floor..

Thu, 29 Jan 2004 06:35:15 GMT

ten min2dwn twn (12:30:27 AM): girl... why cant you get a boy that you like and that likes you back and doesnt have any weird strings attached

damn straight. we'll see if this ever happens.

besides that kind of bs, i'm so happy right now. this semester has gotten off to a great start. i feel so refreshed. one thing that's weird is that i feel as laidback as i was when i first started college. it's a good thing because i feel like i became more of a girl after a year at college, and now i'm back to normal.... but i think i'm too laid back for the rest of the world. i mean, i've never let myself get way stressed out (yeah, i usually complain about dumb shit just to make conversation).
lately i'm having trouble understanding why certain things are stressing people out. it's not that i don't have empathy, it's like i just DON'T GET why and how people can get so bent out of shape. i just take things as they come... you just have to do what you're supposed to. i don't know.. maybe it's just not that simple for others. but it's perfect for me. i'll just go on believing that everything will work out. i can't predict a situation. there's no reason to stress about it before it comes.. and if something doesn't work out your way, don't be retroactive. change it for the future, or just accept that sometimes things will not always be perfect. ok, i'm rambling.
rock. out.

Sun, 04 Jan 2004 15:03:46 GMT

What do people really think about you? by Raven319
Name
Age
favorite song
Parents think	You're lazy
Strangers think	You're hot
Friends think	You're a slut

Created with quill18's MemeGen!

haha, what's that all about??

Sat, 27 Dec 2003 06:52:35 GMT

so i'm finally reading heartbreaking work.. after owning it for 2 years. this is the first time i've felt compelled to keep a book in my hands. i just want to read it over and over. my sister laughs at me because i'm underlining parts in it that i like. i guess that makes me a true nerd.

brandon bought me "you shall know our velocity!" i'm stoked on reading it as soon as i'm done with hwosg.

today when i was at the mall i had a strange sort of elevation. all these thoughts were just streaming through my head. eggers style. they just kept going and i couldn't stop them. i felt like i had some sort of social anxiety problem, which is weird because out of the people i know, i'm the one who loves socializing the most. but i don't know, i kept worrying about running into people that i know. what would i say after all this time? these days it's hard for me to strike up new conversations. i find myself getting upset if tehre is any short moment of silence-- like it's allll my fault if people aren't having a good time. i don't know what to do about this. i think it's a result of william and mary.. for various reasons.

i told this kid tonight that he has to come to my school. "we NEED cool kids like you to come!" then i counteracted with "well, i mean.. there ARE already cool people... but more would be AWESOME!"
i'm such a geek. who am i to say who's cool and not? and side note, i love w&m these days.

ps. hanging out with old friends/acquaintances reminded me of some things. enlightment over break... yeah...
and another ps. i'm throwing away my cell phone. it's too costly to make these risky late night calls. i'm losing my dignity. i feel bad.

dear santa...

Thu, 25 Dec 2003 15:32:36 GMT

the things i want for Christmas don't come in packages, but i guess they're still too much to ask. i'm sure santa is just taking his time on these.. they're not fit for an overnight delivery.

merry Christmas! today has just begun and being with my family is already tons of fun. can't wait for the rest of the day's events. :)

it really won't be better than i remember it before.

Tue, 23 Dec 2003 03:27:31 GMT

maybe disappointment is good for you.

i have a slipper on my right foot, my left foot is bare.. how did that happen?

Thu, 11 Dec 2003 02:19:46 GMT

what if i just didn't care? what if i just stopped? i mean, numbers and letters don't define who you are or how much you know. let's be honest... i've always thought that until now.
this school has turned me into the biggest nerd ever. my brain hurts. i think it's gone. if you find it, please return to:

Tridelt house, Richmond Rd
Room 301
Williamsburg, VA

Thanks.

18th- i will be home then. i can't wait.

let's hope winter break isn't going to be full of disappointments. i feel like it's never going to live up to last year's. it seems like everyone's starting to drift apart. i was told it would be like this. sophomore year. i hate it and it scares me. so promise me you'll remember how it was last year and the year before. things don't have to change if you don't let them. remember that.
hearts out.

why i love this place...

Sun, 30 Nov 2003 01:05:15 GMT

-my phone doesn't stop ringing.. it's weird. i forget it has the capability to ring at school sometimes.
-spontaneity and different choices every night.
-walking into a room of 20 people while every single one yells my name.. stoked!
-the recliner at roscoe's
-random picture in a frame of old fun times at long ago parties
-coming home at 4 am only to wake up and drive out to 81st to see the sunrise.
-the fact that two of my favorite people would sit in 40 degree windy weather on the sand to watch the sunrise. yeah pneumonia.
-having a bunch of people over that have never met, who probably wouldn't meet any other way, and all of them getting along.
-watching people laugh. watching people hug/high five after not seeing each other for a while. watching people love their friendships. genuine friendships.
-cool hs kids saying they want to come to william and mary. the school needs you. ;)

i can't wait until winter break. more fun times 6032987601.

Sat, 22 Nov 2003 07:24:06 GMT

First best friend: jennifer padgett. yay for not sleeping during the first nap time ever
First real memory of something: waving goodbye to my sister before she left for school
First date: summer before senior year (no lie). shrek with mike klett.
First real kiss: hahaha.. it's sad. don't ask. yeah, ms games.
First break-up: have not had one!
First job: hot dog stand
First screen name: trinster26.. till the day of my death!
First funeral: Alana Joy Asarias. may Angels lead you in... thank you for being Rupa's everything.
First pet: 7up.. it was fish
First piercing/tattoo: ears. 3 yrs old
First house/flat/apartment: not yetttt.
First credit card: got one now.. don't pay for it on my own. i'm a brat
First enemy: technically joanne rupprecht-- 2nd grade for no reason. (update-- we're best of buds these days. love you jo!!)
First big trip: india- learned how to walk there. 10 months old. don't remember it
First play/musical/performance: playing piano on my own at age 5 counts
First musician you remember: thebangles

Last cigarette: hey, want a cancer stick? i talked many visiting vcu boys out of smoking tonight.
Last car ride: back from olive garden with the landing girls
Last kiss: last meaningful: august. you know who the hell you are.
Last good cry: bday weekend. wouldn't call it right
Last library book checked out: who knows.. in hs?
Last movie seen: scary movie 3 last week.. HORRIBLE. don't see it
Last cuss word uttered: the "f" word. i know it's bad. ineed to stop. i hate cursing. i'm a lady, don't need it.
Last beverage drank: peppermint patty shots in the hall.
Last food consumed: some honey nut cheerios..yeah late night snack
Last phone call: sarah elizabeth bellamy. i loveeeee you!!
Last tv show watched: fell asleep to trading spaces on tv today.. can't help what other watch when you're in the room
Last time showered: before mymusic exam today
Last shoes worn: brown slipper things from rack room... SO comfortable
Last cd played: ycard- ocean ave. hells yes
Last item bought: dinner tonight
Last annoyance: i walked home BY MYSELF>
Last disappointment: everyday for the same reason. hate it. get off my f-ing mind.
Last soda drank: a LONG time ago. unless you count the root beer in chris's room tonight yeah float shots.
Last ice cream eaten: hmm... baskin robbins last week with sus and amar?
Last time scolded: brandon scolds me a lot
Last shirt worn: pa leadership workshop- take the risk 2003 tee.. i live for this stuff.

i hate you. that's it. a dime a dozen for SURE. silly way...
yay for formal tomorrow night. yay for tgiving break soon. yay for adam moffit coming home. yay for plans like the sunrise and parties. i need vb. i need the smell of summer, i need its noises in my ears.

good night. why am i up at almost 4 am doing this? because i'm that cool...

Sun, 16 Nov 2003 08:42:46 GMT

::10 Bands You Have Seen Live::
1. brand new
2. taking back sunday
3. piebald
4. fairweather
5. poison
6. mae
7. koufax
8. violent femmes
9. ben folds
10. goldfinger

::09 Things You're Looking Forward To::
1. seeing friends over tgiving break- esp adam!
2. the end of the semester
3. having a big office in tridelt
4. doing fun things on 2nd year council
5. growing my hair out really long and then chopping it all off
6. getting my belly button pierced
7. the summertiiiime- vblw, beach, etcccc...
8. hanging out with my sister
9. becoming better friends with some awesome people at this school.

::08 Things You Wear Daily::
1. hs class ring
2. tridelt bracelet
3. neptune festival necklace
4. hairtie on my wrist
5. contact lenses or glasses
6. a bag of some sort
7. watch
8. you're never full dressed without a SMILE...

::07 Things That Annoy You::
1. how i always end up in horrible situations with guys
2. losing touch with people
3. when people start making a lot of noise and packing up before a prof is done speaking.. it's so rude
4. when people wear non-workout clothes to workout
5. people all up in my bidness.
6. irresponsibility/not realizing consequences of your actions
7. my pile of laundry is neverending

::06 Things You Touch Every Day::
1. cell phone
2. ID card
3. cds
4. alarm clock
5. soap (i'm ocd on handwashing)
6. my books-- yeah virginia nerdery, look what this schools done to me

::05 Movies You Could Watch Over and Over::
1. old school
2. big daddy
3. back to the future
4. you've got mail
5. empire records

::04 People You'd Want to Spend More Time With::
1. adam
2. people from last year- lauren, jenna, laura, joe, seth, etc. etc.
3. my vb familyyyy
4. my mom, daddy and sister

::03 Girls/Boys You have Kissed::
1. david
2. matt
3. rob (i'm not shy about it since he tells EVERYone we made out once haha)

::02 Of Your Favorite Songs At This Moment::
1. std- rise
2. britneyyyyyyy- me against the music.

::01 Person You Could Spend the Rest of Your Life With::
1. there has only been one time that i thought i was sure of this.... we'll see how things end up... but i am starting to think i'm going to grow up to be an old maid.

Sun, 09 Nov 2003 16:16:06 GMT

dude, i must be semi-bipolar

or maybe i just had a really bad week or two.

so forget about every second up to this tonight..

Sat, 08 Nov 2003 08:26:45 GMT

kind of sick of being let down... disappointments left and right are hard to keep an optimistic spirit up.

but i'll keep on smiling and hope/pretend that everything will be alright.... i just want to feel like there's still a purpose in it all.

Tue, 07 Oct 2003 01:08:48 GMT

i've been in way too good of a mood to be true. things have been mad busy, but i'm getting through it all. i hope i can keep my social life and grades up at the same time.. it's worked so far, but i'm starting to lack motivation.

i've realized lately that one day can change the course of everything. it's so strange.

it's really nice to get compliments when they're completely unsolicited. i think people are way too nice to me sometimes.

Wed, 24 Sep 2003 05:17:42 GMT

listen very closely.

good past 2 nights. the thing i love about vb is the people. i wish more people were home. no classes till monday.

tonight was so awesome because it was guys and me. i never get that at school and i miss it like crazy. i miss getting joked about having barely any girl friends. i miss having NO drama and not talking about what my hair and clothing looks like 6042976 hours a day. it gets old. boys are not high maintenance. it's a great thing.

Sat, 20 Sep 2003 01:36:45 GMT

the hurricane.. that was pretty rad. only out of power for a little while. we were very lucky to not have any damage. we had fun in the dark hallway of my downstairs and with a battery operated 6 inch tv..

with all this time, i've had a lot of thinking time. if i have one piece of advice for people, it would be to not keep living in the past.. don't live your life in memories. because everyone else around you has let go.. they're busy living their lives and already in their futures.... and then you're stuck with nothing left to hold onto. and not many people to turn to..... it makes me really sad.

Sun, 14 Sep 2003 13:08:49 GMT

there's been a lot of weird things running through my head. i've been missing a lot of my home friends lately, but i don't feel as if any of them are missing me. i'm so scared-- a lot of people told me it would be like this. as the college years go by, you gradually lose more and more touch with the people you care about from home. please don't let this happen to me. i really love being at school for once, but i don't ever want to lose the feeling i get when i'm in vb.

last night.... all i can say is wow. thank goodness everything is ok... and now i'm an even more firm believer of the idea that everything happens for a reason. a lot of little actions can make very very significant differences. regardless, it's good to know that there are always someone who cares. always. good to know that if anything were ever to happen to me, i'd have people to take care of me.

rush is finally over. i'm excited about the new girls. i'm starting to really like this whole sorority idea... it's taken a while, but i think i've changed my mind on a few things. we'll see how the next few years go. :)

Sun, 31 Aug 2003 06:53:49 GMT

everything's starting to become very clear to me.

ask me what it's like to have myself so figured out...

Tue, 19 Aug 2003 06:09:12 GMT

since w&m starts later than most other schools, i always feel as if i'm being left behind. eliot left today. this year i didn't cry. i have yet to get extremely emotional about the fact that some of my best friends have left/are leaving/have been gone all summer... woohoo, i must be getting mature. yeah. that's it. next year's goal will also be to not cry. as i helped el pack last night, he, devan, and i checked to see if everyone's spring breaks coincided.. shows how pathetic, yet loving our group of friends is. they all match except for devan's. i'm arranging to kidnap her from princeton during this time period.

on the side, i just made my dad a little card and i'm putting it in his lunch tomorrow. i hope he finds it witty and refreshing. my dad thinks i'm really funny... this explains to the rest of you why i think my jokes and stories are interesting. i just realized that my dad thinks really great things of me in general... suddenly feeling the pressure to overachieve in life? oh yes. someone get me a book or two, it's time to prove what i've got.